stream of thoughts

I’m losing patience.

Some people need to chill with their pushy personalities.

Not everyone is meant to agree with you and if you ask to know something, then just accept what he/she tells you. If you are just going to argue and dismiss their opinion, then what the heck is the point of asking? It’s so rude of you to call people out on what they think and act like your opinions are the best. You really don’t know normal social etiquette…I don’t understand how you survive during social situations.

I don’t think we can be friends. I always thought you were a little bit awkward but I never imagined that you would be so rude from your awkwardness. For the rest of the summer, I know I’m going to like you less and less. I hope you try less and less to talk to me because I don’t really want to talk to you anymore unless you are willing to be more understanding and accepting of everyone around you- not only me.

Why

do you not trust what I say? I have never given you bad advice on this topic. I actually have always been right. For some reason you just make your own life 10x more complicated by choosing to be involved in certain things and doing things that you shouldn’t be doing. I feel like at the rate you are going, you aren’t going to make it very far in life. I hate that because you have the opportunity to- even if you don’t think you do. You are just making ALL THE WRONG DECISIONS. It’s not my place to judge you or tell you what to do, but when it’s all you can talk about, it is freaking annoying as hell. If you want to do those things you say, then just DO IT. There is NOTHING in your life stopping you. Right now, everything you are doing is the OPPOSITE of what you say you want to do. And now, you are distracting other people and pulling them of their tracks too. If you want to mess up your own life, then fine but don’t mess up the people’s lives that I care about. You have no good sense of “right” and how to give good advice but you still do it. It worries me because you are giving your RANDOM FREAKING ASS advice to the people I care about most in my life. I try hard to help my brother but you pull him more and more off the right track. Why the hell would you have good advice to give about school? You have done nothing with it. All you do is random ass stuff everyday that doesn’t have anything to do with school. I don’t even know why. Why the hell don’t you just CONCENTRATE ON SCHOOL? No one made you grow up and get a job and work all day. Who does that???? I don’t know. You made your life harder than it is and now you only have one topic that you talk to me about and it freaking annoys me so much. Every time I think about you I get pissed off and I liked it better when you had your own group of friends.

All the decisions you have made in the last 2 months have made me think WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU.

Reuniting

Two summers ago, I met so many new friends from all around the world. At the end of my traveling, I realized I would probably not see 99% of those people ever again. Our experiences together would eventually turn into memories and that would be the only thing we have left together. We could skype, email, chat, etc. but it would never be the same again.

I think the best kind of friends to have are the ones that no matter how long you go for not talking, you can resume and continue right where you left off. I’m not the best at keeping in touch, but I am good at continuing to feel comfortable with someone and continuing to have love for someone even if we don’t talk much to reaffirm the friendship. 

A lot of my friendships belong in this category so that makes reunions SO MUCH FUN. I am so excited to visit England in a few weeks! I have planned with a friend who I never thought I’d see again to meet up and explore together. I get to meet his girlfriend who I have only seen facebook pictures of and heard about and I get to introduce him to some of my friends! It’s so awesome to know that we can actually make new memories together and laugh at more jokes and meet new friends together.

I’m so thankful for everything that I have experienced in my life and all the places life will take me in the future. Ever since high school, every single summer of my life I have had the chance to experience something amazing. This summer, I get a chance to make new memories but also be reminded of old memories with an old friend. 

ADJAL;KD SO FRAAAKIN AWESOME